Insomnia thoughts at 1AM.

I’m sick and tired of being tired.

I absolutely hate depending on people.

I crave independence, I need it as bad as I need air to breathe. Which means, I’m claustrophobic at this point.

I want to get married but I don’t want to settle.

I want to have kids but I fear for my unborn children. I just want them to be raised in one household. A loving, God fearing home.

I fear that I cannot forget what has been done to me, which affects my views and reality.

I am scared that where I am in life is all I am capable of, but at the same time I visualize my life so much brighter in my mind.

I wish my phone rang more.

I miss the days when you’d talk on the phone for hours with friends, a crush etc. Scary that those days are behind us. Now, social media posts is how people check up on you.

I’m mostly tired of sacrificing my happiness for others.

I’m sick and tired of men telling me I act “masculine” when I’m standing up for myself or making a decision for my life.

I’m sick of people that feel they’re entitled. Like, spare me the BS.

And yes I said I, I, I, because this is about me! And this platform is mine! Just like when I speak for me I speak for my whole existence/body.

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